Last night I was very bored and decided to take a few personality tests. These were all simple and trivial and meant to be harmless. I enjoyed hearing that I was 58% right brained and 42% left brained. I also liked that I was driven by energy and creativity. This all describes me.
It wasn't until I got to the third test that I began seeing me deep flaws. I'm not talking about being too emotional or having a temper. I mean the deep gashed that tear at your personality and leave yourself feeling inadequate and wrong.
I first saw this when my main trait was "Materialistic". That was so hard to read because I always make fun of the shallow and fake. I despise the money and object driven, but there I am. I am just as bad as the big bankers that are corrupt and money hungry.
The second flaw was paranoia. I had high levels of anxiety towards other people. This makes plenty of sense. I tend to expect the worst in people and I don't really trust anyone. This is only terrifying because the website told me that I may never be able to reach my goals or have a steady relationship if I can't trust.
The last gash was attention hungry. That seems about right. I'm the self conscious type of girl that always jokes to get attention. Hearing that about myself and admitting it was really hard. I am still struggling to write this.
It made me realize that I'm not perfect and I have a lot of work to do if I'm going to reach my goals and be the person I want to be.
This is the completely true story of my virginity and how it's all about the foundation.
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